As I grew up, I believed there was something that could not be changed, "innocence". It kept me away from all the seriousness in the world. Dreams, hopes and future were planted on the land of innocence. It was not necessary to figure out what is true or false. All I needed to do was just play as much as I could without any worries and anxieties. I should have realized it earlier that I wasn't that blessed enough to be a permanent resident there. When I realized it, the innocence I tried to keep became something distorted.